gratitude
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Posted:May 20, 2015 11:55 am
Last Updated:May 27, 2015 7:24 pm 13639 Views
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in another life time I useta do a regular thing on this blog that was called the gratitude exercise. I think it could help me now, I need to focus on how good god is, instead of having a pity party for myself.
the way it useta work, was to name a certain amount of things I am grateful for, and there was some other things that I am having trouble remembering. the ms has taken some of my memories lately. until it comes back, or I think of more things, it will just be things I am grateful for and other daily blessings
I am grateful to almighty god that:
I am alive and well,
for my 3 beautiful and how they have come to be great adults who honor and love me,
for my parents and all their help lately (and always thru out my life),
for god's love, and forgiveness thru jesus.
it is such a blessing that I have come to this place, mathers, more than a café, to have lunch and use their computers. I made friends with an old man named sam today, and he helped me to have a dream again. I think I am going to try to write childrens books. it will give me something to do.
thank you jesus
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i was lost but now i'm finding myself
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Posted:May 17, 2015 7:30 pm
Last Updated:May 19, 2015 7:30 pm 13509 Views
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i have been having a real hard time lately.
i mean, besides the recent episode with the ms, i was struggling with depression all winter, and the church failing has left me pretty lost, for a while i felt disconnected from god, but i have been able to find him again. i've been having a hard time finding my self confidence, and confidence in the lord. my joy factor has taken a lot of lumps too, and i don't know what to do with myself.
being able to go to church again has helped some, but i am not really able to go to MY church and MY people. the local church has the holy spirit, but they are mostly yuppies and i am not fitting in very well. i pray to god constantly, but it is not really his thing to help me figure out who i am anymore.
the church and seminary was kinda my whole game plan and i don't know what to do with myself anymore. i really need a friend.
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mathers
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Posted:May 15, 2015 12:00 pm
Last Updated:May 16, 2015 2:50 pm 11727 Views
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i am online at mathers (more than a café).
it is kind of a hangout for seniors, my mom introduced me to it.
I am too young for this place, but I can eat and get online.
praise the lord
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my car?
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Posted:May 7, 2015 8:16 pm
Last Updated:May 14, 2015 7:18 pm 12359 Views
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i have been riding a 10 speed lately, i am walking better, and riding almost fine. i am planning on trying to drive my car this weekend. it has been in the garage since the ms attack. i think i can. thank you god.
it is an 89 corsica and in worse shape than my 10 speed.... but it will get me farther
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god forgives me in jesus!
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Posted:Mar 2, 2015 5:54 pm
Last Updated:Mar 3, 2015 4:08 pm 13010 Views
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I went into the church for the first time since I closed it last week and god talked to me.
thank jesus! I am gonna make it.
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i give up. i can't do it anymore
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Posted:Feb 27, 2015 1:14 pm
Last Updated:Apr 4, 2015 8:46 am 13295 Views
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the judge today at court decided to let my felony be downgraded to a mosedemanor provided I pass psyche evaluation.
I can't. I am degresed as all get out
I can't do it anymore. I am selling this place for what I can get and try to find life again.
sorry god. I still love you, but I can't handle this
sorry carr. I can't let you walk into this mess. thankd for teying to help and your prayers 
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i traded one addiction for another
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Posted:Feb 23, 2015 10:57 am
Last Updated:Feb 27, 2015 1:10 pm 12822 Views
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i have substituted my pot addiction for a facebook addictions. I have done this before but not with facebook. with anthing I could grab that would keep my attention. last time it was jesus,. that was good. facebook not so good. I need to use time in a more healthy way. I need to apply myself to god and jesus more. help me lord
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Bored to Death
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Posted:Feb 20, 2015 11:26 am
Last Updated:Mar 2, 2015 3:45 pm 13056 Views
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I am lierally boreded to death.
there is NOTHING to do. it is FREEZING out, and nowhere to go
I have walked malvin twice already today and took an extra block around.,
I don't want to watch TV or read a book or anything. I am SO boreded to death. the only thing that isn't TOTALLY boring is praying and god never talks back
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a long long way from home
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Posted:Feb 17, 2015 8:39 am
Last Updated:Feb 22, 2015 5:29 pm 13058 Views
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I have inadvertently outed someone here. i meant for it to be a proclamation of my feelings, and it went WAY beyond that. and the haters here hated it.
sorry for that. we are a long long long ass way from home and everything is up to god for now. i shouldn't have said it. but i was feeling great about it and my faith in god is good.
7 years or so ago, i was FULL of myself an made a mistake. thankfully, god forgave me an gave me a do over, as did she.
even still. it is in the hands of god. we will see. maybe i have learned a few things and maybe we will be blessed with gods grace.
the one thing we have in common is GOD. and he is present. i will leave it to him this time.
thank you god
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valentines day
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Posted:Feb 15, 2015 11:06 am
Last Updated:Feb 17, 2015 7:30 pm 13278 Views
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i prayed the prayer of adam this year and god answered. it is not good for a man to be alone. I don't want to put someone on the spot AGAIN, but I kind of blew it a few years ago and married the wrong woman instead. but god knows better than me. I?
and it was a great valentines day even though we weren't together physically.
god never talked about a woman like he talked about david, but if he did, he would have talked about my valentines that way
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