paying the price
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Posted:Jun 23, 2015 7:21 pm
Last Updated:Mar 24, 2017 7:42 am 16098 Views
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i finally got the community service they doled out for my "crime."
it came in the mail over the weekend and i reported this morning.
i had to walk around on this hot summer day sweeping the streets.
-for 3 hours.
it would not have been that bad if i was 100%, but with this bad leg that is lagging from the ms, it was murder. but god got me thru it. now i just need to do it for 10 more days.
god help me
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gratitude
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Posted:Jun 19, 2015 8:12 pm
Last Updated:Jun 19, 2015 8:17 pm 13211 Views
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i am thankful to almighty god that
i am clearly seeing myself now, that i am seeing myself as god sees me,
that he forgives me anyways, and i am finally forgiving myself.
i am finding myself again and finding god's will in my life again.
that i am finding a reason to live for god again, finally,
i am remembering who i am and what god means to me and my life. i am counting my blessings in this life instead of finding fault with what has changed in my life.
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clarity
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Posted:Jun 17, 2015 7:54 pm
Last Updated:Jun 19, 2015 8:03 pm 16335 Views
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the lord has given me my mind back.
praise the lord.
i can't explain it all just yet. i can't type on this laptop i am reduced to.
suffice it to say, i have been given clarity, and i feel as if i have my confidence back.
praise the lord.
he has been changing me, i need to change, but i can count on myself again.
and i can count on the lord.
thank you everyone who has helped.
i need to be nicer, even when people are not nice.
bless you all 
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not myself
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Posted:Jun 14, 2015 3:31 pm
Last Updated:Jun 17, 2015 7:48 pm 17561 Views
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i am feeling a lot better....but i am still not myself.
i don't know what to do with myself.
i have been seeking god, and finding him, and praying like crazy...
but i am still lost in a fog.
i don't know what to do with myself.
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god uses doctors
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Posted:Jun 8, 2015 7:32 pm
Last Updated:Jun 23, 2015 7:16 pm 17034 Views
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i am finally getting my ms meds tomorrow. i have been off them for over a year. praise god that he is healing me. i am finally feeling myself again. praise god!
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moving home?
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Posted:Jun 3, 2015 8:23 pm
Last Updated:Jun 8, 2015 7:27 pm 15648 Views
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i been staying at my folx house since i was hospitalized, recovering.
well, i am mostly recovered...i have a few things left to recover from, but i want outta here...god is restoring me, mostly. i thought i was depressed, well i was, but it mostly was ms. and with the steroids, and the meds, i am feeling strong.
should i move back into the church?
god says yes, but i am not sure.. i have gotten rid of most of the stuff and cleaned the place to sell. but it hasn't even been shown yet. not only that, but i am not going to get another deal like this. prices have gone up and i am lucky if i can even get a good condo.
so, back home? i need a partner. i am no preacher. i need a good preacher that can build a congregation in a hispanice neighborhood.
they don't need to do much with offering, the building is paid for, i need some help with bills, that is all. and i have a decent basement apartment to stay in.
i need a preacher. an inspired partner. i have lost most of my get up and go with my health problems.
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steroids
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Posted:Jun 1, 2015 7:36 pm
Last Updated:Jun 3, 2015 6:21 pm 15714 Views
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i went today for first appt. for a 2nd coarse of steroids.
this was a premptive strike by my neurologist because the corporation that makes my meds have not made them available to me yet.
i am not so happy about taking steriods, but they have already helped me to think straighter and walk better. i have 2 more appts. this week and the meds. corporation is promising me (again) soon.
i am putting my faith in god and my neurologist
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ms meeting
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Posted:May 30, 2015 7:18 pm
Last Updated:Jun 1, 2015 7:17 pm 13802 Views
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i went this morning to a monthly meeting of the ms society.
it is a bit of a curmudgenly thing, but it helps me to feel better about things, and most of the people there are really good to each other.
it is only once a month, but it helps to talk with others going thru what I am dealing with. the most of us are going thru worse than what i have been going thru: with a much better attitude.
next month we are having an ice cream social. i am looking forward to that.
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gratitude
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Posted:May 27, 2015 7:19 pm
Last Updated:May 31, 2015 8:04 pm 14063 Views
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i am grateful to the almighty god that:
i am healing every day and regaining mental capacity every day.
my relationship with god has been restored and grows stronger each day.
that my empathy towards others has grown and i can serve the lord better because of my trials.
i am blessed by being more of a blessing to people in my life, and i am finding people in my life i never made time for in my past and that is a blessing in itself.
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god's garage is no more
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Posted:May 22, 2015 7:35 pm
Last Updated:May 24, 2015 8:22 pm 13695 Views
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i have been removing the remnants of the church building that was my dream, god's garage.
it has been sorrowful and sad. most of the stuff is in boxes or thrown away. it has left me empty , but god still loves me. now i just need to love myself
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