THE trial
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Posted:Sep 21, 2015 10:23 am
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2015 7:27 pm 27015 Views
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i have been feeling myself again. i don't know if that means this trial is over or not, but i am feeling as if it is my life again. thank you god.
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trials are god's disciplin
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Posted:Sep 17, 2015 7:18 pm
Last Updated:Sep 21, 2015 10:18 am 24760 Views
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i been watching james McDonald on walk in the word lately and he had a real good take on why we go thru trials.
god disciplines all his with trials. he says if you don't have trials iin your life, then you should be worried.
i have gotten SO close with god thru this trial, that i don't really want it to end and lose touch with him again. 
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journal
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Posted:Sep 15, 2015 8:08 pm
Last Updated:Sep 16, 2015 7:54 pm 22909 Views
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forgive them lord, we know not what we do.
Unitentional sin.
The cities of refuge, to save us from the blood avengers.
Jesus is my city of refuge.
Goe has to have justice, but he LOVES grace, not vengance.
The world has vengance, an eye for an eye. It has to have justice,
But god’s get grace thru jesus.
Thank you god. I have done wrong. I am a sinner,
both intenionally and unintentionally.
Thank you jesus, thank you.
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mo journal
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Posted:Sep 12, 2015 7:09 pm
Last Updated:Sep 18, 2015 7:43 pm 20097 Views
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9/7
they finally fixed the internet at home, so I can upload my journal as I tried to do the other day. it is nice to be online again
I trust in the lord.
I have been here before and god has been good.
The lord is there for me when I need him, when I admit I need hiim I know he is here.
Psalm 139
O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise
You perceive my thoughts from aftar.
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journal
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Posted:Sep 11, 2015 7:15 pm
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 7:35 pm 19771 Views
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9/6
don't give up.
cast your anxieties on god.
give him your best, that is good enuff.
they showed us a clip at church of a foot ball guy going 100 yrds with someone on his back. it made me cry.
another member had a vision of me running a small group and was excited.
celebrate recovery goup is coming, yay!
don't give up. my trust is in god. he has gotten me through worse things.
I am desperate for god
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journal
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Posted:Sep 9, 2015 11:48 am
Last Updated:Sep 11, 2015 8:25 am 21175 Views
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i have been keeping a journal at home to keep a record of my daily life with god, but i don't have internet. so i copied some of it here at work
it isn't copying from the memory i used. i guess i will have to try again.
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its easy to be angry
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Posted:Sep 2, 2015 9:32 am
Last Updated:Sep 9, 2015 9:31 am 22062 Views
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A thing i have learned, and tried to rectify, through my recent trials is that it is easy to be angry and unforgiving. Even though god has forgiven me my debt through Jesus, I often hold grudges against others. It is easier to find fault with others than it is to find a kind word and encouragement.
I realize I was angry with people more than not. People can't drive in this city, or wait in a given line fairly, or do anything fairly or politely to strangers. it is easy to write people off as jerks quickly.
when a lot of people were here on the blogs, there were always good people that out weighed the angry people, but as the blogs have dwindled down, the angry people are more noticeable.
You know who you are.
I know I used to be one of you.
But if you love god, you know that it is wrong.
Let it go and let God.
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Posted:Aug 24, 2015 9:36 am
Last Updated:Sep 1, 2015 7:16 pm 21627 Views
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i went to a marijuana anonymous (ma) meeting on saturday. i HAVE been going on saturdays for about a month or so and it is helping me. this week, nobody came but me and the guy in charge, but he read from the "big book" the handbook for ma.
i am well versed in the anonymous programs. i started in na, and am going to aa now. it is just a way to be with people. i was married to an alcoholic 13 years and started na with her (she was also a coke fiend). i have had a lot of problems with drugs, but mostly in my youth, but i have always smoked a lot of pot.
most people don't look at pot seriously, and neither did i, but it is a fact that it IS very addictive and DOES mess with your head a lot. i quit for 8 years before, but i started again whtne i (almost) finished seminary. i quit jan 5 this year. i wasnt sure when exactly it was, but i made a facebook page about quitting and found it.
this saturday i heard that a lot of m addicts have a problem isolating. for me, it is EVERYTHING. it is how i socialized with people. i don't know how to get close to people if we aren't sharing a joint. that has been my biggest problem. not NOT getting high.
i am SO alone. god has been helping, and i have been joining stuff and keeping busy. but i am SO alone. i remember when i quit before, and i was the same way. it stopped after a while when i found other places to belong. i am not having such a great time belonging now that i am old. it is harder. i have been going to church, and small groups, and playing chess. but i still need things to do with others.
it is not good for man to be alone.
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restoral
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Posted:Aug 23, 2015 8:47 am
Last Updated:Aug 26, 2015 10:47 am 18262 Views
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praise the lord.
he has been restoring me, and I am feeling myself again. I am considering buying a new car and moving back into my building, the church. I don't think it is wise to do for the winter, but maybe, if things work that way.
it has been on the market and only one person was interested who made a ridicuolosly low price. god gave me this buildimg, bought and paid for. I am not selling it for nothing.
praise god. I will move back in an try to restore the church
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i am so sorry otter :(
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Posted:Aug 17, 2015 11:09 am
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 7:35 pm 15812 Views
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i would like to apologize to otter and anyone else i have disrespected here. i have not been completely right with god. may otter rest in peace and god bless
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