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mrpoobearnikki 51
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11/5/2007 9:51 pm
HIS AMAZING GRACE NEVER FAILS

I remember being so suicidal after the death of my mom. It was on Thursday August 8, 1985 when the most important person in my life was killed when a young man rushing his girlfriend to the hospital ran a red light & instantly killed my mom. She received 2 punctured lungs, a fracture neck, & a gash in the middle of her forehead that the coroners could see her flesh. I remember trying to slit my wrist with a butcher knife, trying to swallow an ENTIRE bottle of sleeping pills. I HATED God for taking my mom away from me & the fact that I didn't understand why I had to lose her at such a young age. When she died, it felt as if my whole world just shut down. I didn't care about anyone or anything either. I lost my "innocence" at the age of 12 because I felt so abandoned & alone. Not only that, I didn't know my dad till I was 18 years old. I was looking for love in all the wrong places when I should've been looking toward God all along. When I turned away from Him, He never ever turned away from me. When I used His name in vain, He still waited for me with open arms & a forgiving spirit. It was like when I got saved 6 years ago. He said, WELCOME HOME MY DEAR . No matter how many times I mess up, HE always forgives me.