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Ketchup, Catsup, Catch Up - The Birthday Week Edition This past week, my second week back at work, has been a whirlwind. And smack dab in the midst of it was my 46th birthday. I worked a lot of hours this week but got a lot accomplished as well. I squeezed five days of work into four loooong days since we are given one day off for our birthdays at my job. Since my birthday fell on Monday which is a heavy processing day for payroll, I couldn't take it off but the boss gave me Thursday instead. It turned out much better anyway because large storms came in on Thursday, flooding the southside of town in places. Meanwhile, I stayed in my pajamas all day and off the freeways! What a blessing! Last Sunday, my mom invited Jacob and I to dinner for my birthday. Jake barbecued chicken on the grill. I racked up a phone card for my pass-as-you-go emergency only cell phone from my parents. Have you tried to find a pay phone anymore? And if you did, how much did it cost you? Remember when it used to be a dime... or a quarter tops!?! I digress... Jacob gave me a new pair of houseslippers. They are fuzzy and purple. I love them. The punkenstein did good! Usually I spend my birthdays depressed. I get way over analytical and start comparing my life with some over the top world view of lofty standards that few can reach. I begin focussing on my failures and regrets instead of my blessings. But not this year! I was on my back porch late Monday night when I realized that here it was my 46th birthday and I am sitting alone on my backporch of my mobile home talking to four feral kittens that adopted us a few months ago. And I started thinking... Why does that sound like a bad thing? I was at peace. I have my own home. My is doing well. I have a job when so many have none. I have accomplished many things in my 46 years that others have only dreamt about. My journey has changed over the years but the journey continues and I am walking with Him. There have been times that He fully carried me along that journey. But He got me through it. He continues to bless me with His forgiveness, mercy, and unconditional love... despite myself; despite who I have been; despite the mistakes I will make in the future. God rocks and I actually had a very awesome birthday. In fact, on paper it doesn't look like much but this year ranks right up there with my sixth birthday when I received my first bike. Wow, that was 40 years ago! Yeah, I'm older but I don't care. God is good and so my life. Special Note: Thank you Brister Bate and everyone who wished me well on my birthday. I really do appreciate the warm wishes. I must have been so busy working that I didn't see all the pics of you men dressed in pirate outfits and guyliner for me.... ROFLOL 
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I am unsure why this won't post. Ack!
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Thanks Rod! God bless you!
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Amen on that comparing your life to lofty ideals! That's so easy to do! If my earlier years hadn't been so devastating with depression and treatment issues, I wouldn't have had a new lease on life at 40. It really made my expectations so much more realistic; to feel simple joy and pleasure at good things, to savor conversations and people, to reach a goal w/o worrying about being perfect at the task. Thank you for your thoughts.
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Thank you Longing. 
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JustMe: I think the world we live in kicks us enough, we shouldn't kick ourselves as well. Of course, that's easier said than done as I am often my own worst enemy. You are so right about the past making the present and future sweeter. God is constantly taking the bad and turning it into good for His glory. God rocks!! Izzy: Wow, whatta walk! I'd love to see some pics sometime. I can nearly picture it in my mind's eye from your description. Awesome!!God bless you and your son.
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