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the importance of obedience Hey Y'all, Its been so long!! I'll try and make this update short. For the last year I have been singing in the worship team at my church. Everything was moving up so quickly and I was going from strength to strength. Then I hit a wall, it was called obedience. My pastor gave a talk about purity, and about how GOd had been telling him things would happen in the service such as healings and miracles but they did not eventuate. When he asked God why he was told very strongly that it was a matter of purity in the worship team. As we are the worship leaders, the front line, purity in our team should be of great importance. He said he wasn't necessarily talking about immorality but I knew he was. God was speaking directly to me. So, at a stage when I thought I was about to be launched into greatness for God, he rebuked me and I was humbled. The thought that I could actually hinder what God wanted to do in the church made me feel Horrible! SO I have put myself on hiatus, I am no longer leading worship until I get right with God. The thing that I am on hiatus about is my relationship with Johnny. We had a sexual relationship before I became a christian and this continued after I was saved. As we have been doing for 5 years, We still stay over at eachothers houses, him usually at mine. I cannot be in denial any longer that this is wrong. I have been praying for God to give me the strength and courage to end this behaviour. The problem is I just don't know how to approach him about it. I'm sure the Lord has given me plenty of opportunities but the words just will not come out. I am a coward. Has anyone been in a similar situation? I need advice!! May our spirits comfort each other in Christ. Beck |
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Beckthter, Actually yes, all though not for the same reason. There have been times when God has put in my heart to get up and go to someone and pray for them. I mean like in the middle of od something else happening, like a church service. And for me to just get up and interupt what is happening and have everyones eyes on me... Well that is not something that is comfortable to me. So I would not listen to the Spirit moving me to go and I would wait until the service was over or whatever was going on at the time and then go to them. It was not the same then, God had wanted me to go when He prompted me to go because it was not for my benifit but for the benifit of others so that God would receive the glory. It has never been about us, but it has always been about God and His love for us. The world tells us it is alright to glorify ourselves, but the Spirit of God tells us to Glorify God. Conviction leads to repentance for those who truly love God and it leads to anger for those who don't truly love God. Would you please pray with me? Heavenly Father touch your daughter Beckthter and fill her heart to overflowing with your love for her, strengthen and comfort her, hold her close to you in your loving arms and by your Holy Spirit give her your peace, Father open the door for her to talk to her boyfriend and give her the strength to speak your words, Father soften his heart to receive this word and seek to know you better, Father may everything that your daughter Beckthter does bring glory and honor to you in Jesus name Amen God Bless You, mike
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Thanks guys for all your prayers and support Drakk, I understand what you are saying, and I know the Pastor was speaking to the group as a whole, but if all of us did not take the message to heart and applied it to our personal lives individually, then what is the use of the message? The same can be said of every church service. We have talked about marriage, and on the weekend Johnnt (in his subtle male way lol) was trying to get me to pick out a wedding ring, so to me that says he is definitly thinking about it! Things have moved on since my last post so i'll start a new thread. Beck
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