Reset Password
Reset Link Sent
| Blogs > RockyG666 > god's servant's blog |
|
exercize 3 he is old. not infirm, just not young. all the play has been gone for many years, and he doesnt' know how to laugh anymore. he still knows god, but he has to remind himself all the time. he tends to repeat the songs they sing in church, he needs to avoid the rock n rolls songs he grew up with. they tend to remind him of drugs and alcohol. he tries very hard NOT to think of drugs and alcohol, but those thoughts creep up in his mind all the time. god is good he tells himself. i trust god and jesus. i KNOW he will get me through this bad time. god is my hope. and he sings 'the lord is my hope' out loud. he feels better almost right away. he is killing time, something he has to do a LOT now. he considers going into a chat room, but decides against it. there is TOO much division in the religion chat room, he does NOT want to fight and hate, but that is what usually goes on there. at one time, the hate consumed him. he was SO hateful at the people that hated god that he just could NOT let it go. things are somewhat better now. he is not as angry as he used to be. jesus has helped him to love others. however, that anger comes back at times. he needs to leave it behind ALWAYS. he needs jesus' love in his heart no matter how badly others try to hurt him. he is old. that is NOT his main problem, although, he IS old. he needs to laugh more, to smile, and to love others. he knows this, but it doesn't help. perhaps he can find his way through writing about god. although, he does not know what to write anymore, it alludes him. |
|
