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msnikki2 51F
67 posts
10/22/2008 11:52 am
MY LIFES TRAGEDIES ARE GOD'S TRIUMPHS PART 1


Before I got saved, I used to HATE God. It all started when I lost my Mom at the age of 12. She was killed in a tragic car accident when a young man was rushing his girlfriend to the hospital, ran a red light & took the most important person in my life. I started having sex right after her death & wanted a baby sooooo bad. I even tried to get pregnant at age 13, not caring that I was a baby myself. I went through so much hurt and anger during that time, but (so I thought)no one really cared. I was even suicidal. I tried slicing my wrist once on her birthday. Mother's Day was the hardest for me. I'd always cry in my room because I wanted her to be there with me. I wanted to be the one who would get up in the morning & fix her a Mother's Day breakfast. As I got older, I still felt a void in my heart where she should've been. I hadn't seen my father since I was 2 & on Mother's Day 1991, he walked back in my life, only to be taken from me 8 years later. He died from a massive heat attack in his fiance's arms. that just broke my heart because one day I knew I was gonna get married & I wanted my Dad to walk me down the aisle & I wanted my first dance to be with my father. I just completey turned my back on Him & didn't want to hear ANYTHING about God at all. Before long, things took a turn for the worse. Be Tuned To Hear About It!!!
AlanB2 68M

10/22/2008 1:36 pm

 I honestly feel for you!...I think a lot uf us here feel the same way...Just keep trusting GOD and you will be okay....I think You know that!...God Bless You


‘HE will rule them with an iron scepter.’... He treads the winepress of the fury of the wrath of God Almighty.... On HIS robe and on HIS thigh HE has this name written:... KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS."