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Through All Trials & Tribulations I Still Have The Victory Even though I got saved in 2001, this walk hasn't been easy. It all started 22 years ago when my mom died in a car accident when a young man was rushing his girlfriend to the hospital & ran a red light and killed the most important person in my life. Right after that, I lost my "innocoence" because I was looking for love in all the wrong places. I was suicidal & even tried to committ suicide a couple of times. I remember sitting in the middle of the floor with a butcher knife to my wrist. One time I tried to swallow an ENTIRE bottle of sleeping pills. Then when I was 17, I ran away from home because I was tired of getting abused. I HATED God for letting me go through this. Really I didn't understand why I had to go through this. I thought God was merciful & loving. I didn't know my natural father till I was 18 & getting ready to graduate from high school. I enjoyed having my Dad back in my life & whenever he came to visit, I was with him. I went through so much hate & thought it was ok to feel like that. In 1996, I lost my "second mom" when I lost my grandmother to congestive heart failure. That broke my heart into 2 million pieces. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. I completely turned against God & even took His name in vain. When someone would ask, Did I believe in God? I just laughed in their faces. I HATED God & how could I love someone I hated. I mean I lost my mom & my grandmother. It was like God hardened my heart on purpose because He eventually knew I was gonna come back to him. In 1999, my father died due to a massive heart attack. When I lost my father, I couldn't take it any more. I just said FORGET IT. I couldn't believe what I was going through. I even thought about committing myself into a mental institution because I actually thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown. In 2001, God was calling me to get saved. I was like How could you want me back after I turned my back on you? So on Sunday October 14, 2001 I came back to my heavenly Father. Now I have been through some trials & tribulations even being saved. In 2004, my brother & his girlfriend were in a car accident when a semi-truck hit & totaled their car. THANK GOD THEY WEREN'T KILLED. They only walked away with back pain. Just last year was a REAL FIGHT for me. My cousin was in a car accident when he was driving his friend's mom's car, wrapped the car around the tree, & totaled the car. THANK GOD HE WASNT HURT!!!!!!!!!  THIS WAS BEFORE HIS GRADUATION. Then his brother was in an accident. Again, no one was hurt. Then my brother was in an accident (again), again, no one was hurt. Then my auntie was in an accident, AGAIN, no one was hurt. My dad's mom had to have triple bypass surgery & she came through just fine. Then in September I had to go the hospital because of an irregular heartbeat. After being in the hospital for about three days, I everytime I went to the bathroom, I urinated straight blood with blood clots as big as QUARTERS. My blood pressure was so low (40/30) I had to stay another day. I found out I had to have a D&C (scraping of the uterus). I had the procedure on Tuesday November 21 last year. While in the hospital, I felt His presence the entire time. I am glad that my spiritual dad (my pastor) didn't come see me, but he did the NEXT BEST THING, he prayed for me. When I came back to church that following Sunday, I felt so much better. You know, I was once told that I didn't deserve the hand that I was dealt in my life. I said I did deserve it because there are two sides to that. No I didn't deserve it because I went through so much at a young age. But on the positive side, I did deserve it because it made me a stronger person in Him. I know how to handle situations, trials, & tribulations now better that I did then. PTL |
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amen and amen, we have the victory in Jesus, thanks for sharing and welcome to the land of blogs, cheers May the Lord bless you and keep you
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hey,,,, Wow , that is very intense what you shared. I can't imagine what you have been thru but God has been there for you all the time sister. God will continue to heal your broken heart and your brokenness and bring you on closer to His gentle, loving presence. So many who read what you have written will see that God gives assurance even in the roughest of times. I am encouraged so very much by what you have written here. Peace to you, your sis in Jesus, Lisa
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Great testimony God Bless you for having the strength in Him. -T Born Again Christians only need to chew, It's those left behind that have to swallow it.
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11/7/2007 6:48 pm |
Thank you for sharing your powerful testimony. God is truly the Way, the Truth and the Light. God bless you richly my dear sister in Christ. May God bless you and keep you and may your heart and mind be filled with the love and peace of God which is beyond all understanding.
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11/9/2007 1:06 pm |
Hey Princess Praise the Lord that YES our Father has a Perfect plan for ALL His children!! Though we dont see it @ first in time the LIGHT goes on & His Divine Revelation seems to Illuminate our spirit& souls!!! I Praise the Lord with ya sis that though you have faced many trials [[ Tests]] that it has done its job in you !!! It has begun a charactor in you that only by these Trials[[ Tests]] that you are what you are now by the Mercy & Grace of God !! I luv ya sis in the Lord Jesus Christ always & Know this my sister we are more then CONQURERS through Jesus Christ who alone is our Strength in whatever Trial[[ Test]] we may face  in Christs Love Mark [[ The Heavenly Dove]]  lol ok my new handle is KEYHOLE 
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